Male Homoerotic Intimacy and Labels

A recent forum commenter who happened to be gay paid me a complement that I was very humbled by. He said that he found my recent description of oral love on J’s pussy to be incredibly erotic; so much so that it got him hard and made his cock drip. Reading his comment (which was longer than my description) was so arousing to me it made my own cock harden and drip.

The fact that I could read a guys description (in this case a gay guy) of his arousal and the visceral response that he felt in reading about a man giving pleasure to a woman, struck me as profound. The fact that it coaxed my cock to erection reinforced what my response to him was. This is what I said:

One of the things that has come from my rewiring is the abandonment of labels; gay, straight, curious …they are all fabricated labels. In the end as men we are all sexual beings; unfortunately society forces us to segregate and separate all things sensual. I see tenderness and warm intimacy in two guys kissing and fondling each others cocks just as much as I see that same tenderness in a man and a woman kissing and fondling a cock and vagina. We all see eroticism in the sensual things around us. I don’t make excuses for it. I celebrate it.”

The response made me think of my limited experience with sexual intimacy man to man.

Not very long ago I had an experimental liaison with a guy. It was well planned culminating in a weekend together. The anticipation unfolded in a meeting of two curious guys coming to grips with their interest in homoerotic intimacy.

We met in person for the first time as we agreed to meet in the hotel lobby when we checked in. He was 20 years younger than I with a taut lithe body and a very large cock that I had seen in photos exchanged on line. We agreed to share a hotel room. That initial meeting was at night; when we greeted each other I was immediately struck at how good looking and shy he was. That sense was amplified later in our room as clothes were shed and the awkwardness of my cock being stone hard as I revealed it to him; I was embarrassed and turned on to show myself to him. My arousal was inflamed even further by seeing his beautiful long thick cock in person. When we hugged nude the first time and I felt his cock against my abdomen, the reality and intimate nature of what were about to do was driven home. This was the first time I had ever touched a naked man, had a guys cock in my mouth and felt him spill his hot cum in my mouth as I sucked it from his cock slit. It was the only time I ever slept intimately naked with a guy.

The most intimate thing however was getting into bed together nude and sleeping together. I was so turned on sleep was extremely difficult. But I did fall asleep eventually.

After sleeping for a few hours I awoke in the dim glow of early morning; the awkwardness was gone, all I knew was the warm sexy body next to me. Despite several ejaculations together the evening before I still couldn’t get enough of him; it was so incredibly erotic to be in bed with him, I was hard and ready to cum again as soon as I woke up. I reached over to his tight body to feel the smooth skin of this sexy mans stomach as he lay quietly half awake. I began to stroke his belly button tenderly and sweep my hands up to his nipples to toggle and pinch them. He was now awake and immobilized by the exquisite sensation of my exploring hand on the skin of his stomach, and chest teasing him and stirring his arousal. I knew that he longed to feel my warm hand caress his rigid penis as I toyed with his nipples and tugged them. Then I slowly traced the path from his nipples to his belly button to his rigid cock and let my hand dwell on his cockhead, warming it under my palm and drawing the precum up his shaft.
Caressing his cockhead gently and running my middle finger up and down his frenular cleft I made his cock dance and lurch. After provoking it and teasing it I calmed it by patting it tenderly. Then taking the girth of his shaft in my grip and gently squeezing it, I expressed clear sweet pre cum from his cock slit. Gingerly I jelked his shaft to milk all the pre cum I could from him. Collecting it on two fingers I brought his clear sweet honey to my tongue and tasted him. The taste of his precum only amplified the arousal and my intimate connection to him that was now saturating my mind.

I reached back down between his thighs as he parted them and I tenderly caressed his balls. In the heat of the bed they hung loose in the palm of my hand. Men are taught to be so macho and tough yet the sheer act of trust me, shedding his sense of vulnerability and allowing me to relish his warm delicate balls in my hand and having him lay there legs spread for my caress was one of the most intimate experiences I had ever had with another human bring. My cock is getting hard and my slit is dripping now just recalling it.

He laid there and let me feel him up and fondle him for a long time. The warmth and the erotic intimacy he felt having his aroused cock and warm balls fondled and loved under the covers made his precum stream. Pulling the covers off both of us I lowered my mouth the the clear sweet stream drooling from his long hard manhood. I sipped the sweet clear passion from his cock slit and savored it on my tongue. I then engulfed his swollen cockhead in my mouth and locked my lips behind the ridge of his cockhead, sucking him as I massaged his cleft with my rough tongue.

But before he spilled his hot cream on my tongue I dropped his engorged penis from my mouth. It fells on his abdomen with a flop. I got on my knees and swung my leg over his hips to straddle him. Our dripping cocks were now only inches apart.

Caressing his shaft in my left hand I took my own stone hard cock in my right hand. Then lowering myself onto his pelvis my balls rested on his as I held our cockheads together. Our frenular clefts kissed, I dripped my copious precum on him. The feeling of his slippery cockhead on mine was exquisite.

Then holding our shafts parallel and touching I made a circle with my hand and put both our cockheads in my grip. He sighed and moaned as I began to hump my cock against his, rubbing my own cleft back and forth across his made him gasp and moan. The pleasure of slippery cock flesh rubbing together only enhanced both our arousals. The precum was now pulsing from both our cockheads filling my fist with a passionate cocktail that was a blend of our mutual growing desire.

As I drew my cock back and forth across his engorged mushroom cleft he stiffened and moaned in the desperate climb to release. The friction of cockhead to cockhead pushed him over the edge and opened the gates of his orgasm. He thrust his pelvis up against my perineum as he strained to empty his balls. Holding our cockheads together he spewed a thick stream of white cum into the palm of my upturned hand. Each successive pumping spurt shot a stream of cum into the growing pool in my palm. His cum was thick and white and very very hot. It was so sexy to be holding a guys cum in my palm. Witnessing his fevered ejaculation and holding his cock as he rhythmically pumped his cum for me was incredibly erotic. I watched him dump his sweet cream into my palm pushed me closer to my own release.

Temporarily releasing his cock from my grip I dipped his cockhead into the pool of his warm cum in my palm; I then encircled his cockhead with my cum filled palm, spreading his cream all over his cock shaft and crown. The sight of a guy ejaculating is just as erotic for me as seeing a woman twisting and mewling as orgasm forces her pussy open and makes her perineum and anus twitch rhythmically as sweet pleasure drills into her hapless cunt. Holding his cum seemed to be such a privilege.

So as I held his cum coated cock in my left hand I put my middle finger of my right hand under my cleft. I began to stroke my own turgid penis as I held my cock slit down against the cleft under his cockhead. His cum provided the most incredible lube on my cock, stimulating me to cum quickly. In a matter of seconds I released and spewed my own cream all over his cum glazed cockhead.

The sight of me regurgitating my passion milk and on another guy’s cock and mixing it with his cum only strengthened the ferocity of my ejaculation and drained my balls dry. After I emptied my load all over his cock I collapsed next to him.

Post orgasmic intimacy is just as sweet and warm with a guy as it is with a woman.

The weekend was one pleasurable erotic discovery after another. It was as intimate and sensual as any sexual connection with a woman that I have ever had. It was after that weekend that I decided to shed labels and consider myself a sexual person.

However, I remain dedicated to J and our heterosexual relationship. But I have tasted the sexual intimacy that a man can provide and I am glad I did. I put no labels on it.